After approximately nine years I have decided to give up my love affair with cigarettes. At this point I have had 1 cigarette in the last 38 hours, and I am feeling pretty confident in the whole thing. I have tried this before and failed, so going into it I was a little scared about failing again. They say that each time you fail you have less of a chance of ever quitting. So, I’m kind of looking at this as a now or never kind of thing. The thing that bothers me the most about quitting is that I feel about half brain dead all the time. I can’t think, or make any logical sense of anything. I have had to make some decisions for my upcoming wedding, and I just couldn’t think straight for long enough to come up with anything. I think the fiancé may be a bit mad at me for that one. So, what I’m getting at is that I hope that as cigarettes become less apart of my life I begin to miss them less and gain some sense back.
Money. $3.20 a day = $1,152 a year to smoke. That is crazy.
Health. It is not healthy to smoke. Lately I have been finding myself short of breath while doing things that aren’t really hard work.
Marriage. I’m getting married in about 2 ½ months. Future wife doesn’t smoke, and doesn’t want me to. I think that is a fair request.
Personal Belief. I don’t think that anything should have complete control over you the way cigarettes do. I find myself thinking about cigarettes more than a lot of other things that I should be thinking about. I have better things to do than think about where I’m going to smoke my next cigarette, thinking about how many cigarettes I have left, and where I’m going to get some more cigarettes. It’s worse than crack.
How am I doing this?:
Well I wish I could just quit, but I can’t. Last time I tried just quitting I failed because I finally couldn’t take it anymore and made enough excuses to convince myself that I needed a smoke. This time around I have got myself some bandits, which are little pouches of tobacco kind of like chewing tobacco but not as nasty. I find that when I get a craving, a bandit will usually take care of it. There are those who say “Well, now you are going to be addicted to those things” I doubt it. I think I am more addicted to the act of physically smoking rather than the nicotine. Once this can of bandits is through with, I won’t be getting another.
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